I am not going to lie to you, this weekend has been seriously crappy. I have had to watch bad things happen to people who do not deserve them and to see suffering that I cannot relieve. When I cannot help I get very frustrated, angry, and I get migraines. I hate those moments when you see things slipping around you, like watching glass falling off of a table and knowing that no matter how fast you run to it that it will shatter. There is nothing worse than the feeling of helplessness, it's like being lost but with the stark horror of knowing exactly where you are. Frankly, it pisses me off.
Sometimes things happen in life that just do not make any sense. We
question the order of things and say that it is not fair. We want God to
solve everything and for the pain to just stop. It just doesn't though because life does not work that way.
I realized that I needed a blessing even though I have suffered very little compared to those around me. The blessing was a very good one. It offered no promises of things getting better or that those that I love would get the help that they needed or that magical healing would occur. It offered me something true and honest. I was offered comfort. It may seem silly to you, that's standard for every blessing isn't it? This time was different though.
I felt like God was saying to me, "Liz I know you want to fix everyone, but you can't honey. I know seeing their problems and seeing their suffering is hurting you, I know because it hurts me too. People have the freedom to choose for themselves even if what they choose is bad for them. All you can do is let them know that you love them and that is enough. What I have to offer you is my love and my comfort. This is what I have for you, I hope you take it."
I feel like I have been offered this blessing over and over again but I just heard it for the first time. When things happen that just do not make sense and seem over whelming do not push aside these blessings. They may seem small and they may seem common but they are not. Listen to the small voice in the back of you mind that says, "I'm still here" and believe it. Hard times will come for everyone, that is just a fact of life that we cannot control. What we can control is if we accept that help that is offered to us from the One who loves us the most and wants the best for us. He never stops loving us even if we stop loving Him. I cannot think of anyone better to have in my corner and I promise that if you let Him into yours you will not regret it. Let go of what you think should be happening and let Him help you with what is happening.
I can think of no better way to end this blog than with the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
